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        FGAZ 18-06                   Page 2                   21 Mar 2022   
      
      
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        As I See It: Slowing Down   
        Sean Dennis (1:18/200)   
      
        My health has taken a turn for the worse these past few years and I am   
        now permanently disabled and unemployable due to health.  I have had   
        the displeasure of fighting with Social Security for the past two   
        years and not having any income since January 2020.  It's not been   
        easy nor fun but in the process of becoming disabled and changing my   
        worldview because of it, I have learned to slow down.   
      
        I now have seemingly unlimited time to do what I want if my health   
        isn't constantly interfering with me, making me either hurt constantly   
        or sleep for 14 hours.  When I am feeling decent, I still enjoy   
        working on all of my BBS-related hobbies and, when I can get my radio   
        fixed, amateur radio even with being in an apartment.   
      
        However, the fight that was once in me is gone.  I have to manage   
        stress carefully.  I have a blood clot (DVT) in the artery in my right   
        leg that threatens to move if I get too upset or too physically   
        active.  It could go to my lungs and suffocate me to death, to my   
        heart or brain blocking the blood flow to either organ and killing   
        me.  Real fun to think about this, believe me.   
      
        So that's why I have backed off of a lot of things in Fidonet.  I   
        simply can't handle it anymore.  Now this doesn't mean that I am   
        leaving or anything (you can't get rid of me that easy) but it does   
        mean that if there's a problem I can't fix, I'll try to avoid the   
        situation altogether.   
      
        Thankfully, things are somewhat calmer these days and I really enjoy   
        shooting the breeze in different echoes.  It's nice to spend time   
        chatting.  I enjoy publishing the FidoGazette even if I don't have a   
        lot of content to publish (yes, this means you: where is your article   
        for the FG? ).  I guess it's the satisfaction of having a routine.   
      
        And there you have it as I see it.   
      
        Constructive criticism and comments are welcomed.  Letters to the   
        editor are also welcomed.  Netmail is welcomed also but I prefer the   
        other methods first (I accept crashmail via BinkD).  Leave your   
        flamethrower and vulgarities at the door or I will just delete your   
        message.   
      
        -- Sean   
           1:18/200   
      
      
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