Re: trying again   
     By: Nancy Backus to Damon A. Getsman on Mon Apr 06 2015 23:17:52   
      
    NB> Trying again to re-send this one... the second half of the response to   
    NB> the original message...   Once again, I'm running about a week   
    NB> behind...!   
      
     Yeah I don't think I ever saw this one originally...  If I did I must've been   
   horribly sleep deprived or something.  Didn't ring any bells.   
      
    NB> New babies take a lot of energy and time, so I'm not surprised it's   
    NB> taking him time to get things together for you... Sounds to me like an   
    NB> exercise in patience and letting worries go...  ;)   
      
     Yeah it turned out that he'd been way slammed with all of that, much like I   
   suspected.  Though it has made me a bit leary of relying solely on this one   
   mode of income.  I've got that handled, though, so it's all good.  It was,   
   indeed, good practice in making sure that I'm still doing what I need to in   
   order to make ends meet either which way.  An exercise in letting go of the   
   things that I cannot change, and a bit of courage in knowing the difference, if   
   I may insert a bit of serenity prayer wisdom.  ;)   
      
    DAG>> know, especially when the airport has TSA and um.  Yeah you got a   
    DAG>> pgp key?  *laugh*    
    NB> Nah... never bothered getting one..  :)  Never really had a need for   
    NB> it... :)  Usually have had some other reasonably secure way of talking   
    NB> outside an echo or email...  :)   
      
     Eh, I was mostly joking with that point, anyway.  ;)  Some stories don't need   
   any retelling.  Indeed it may be, at times, that in one's best interests it may   
   be a good idea not to do so.  ;)  That being said, I do advocate encryption for   
   even the most mundane things, as it provides, hopefully, a little bit more   
   headache and pain in the ass for the powers that be with their long microphones   
   and wiretaps.  If it's implemented properly, anyway, which is tough in today's   
   age of completely pwned hardware.   
       
    DAG>> I'm working on it.  A med flux that I had recently destroyed my   
    DAG>> ability to concentrate on left brained things very well for a few   
    DAG>> days, but I think I'm over that now.     
    NB> Ach... that doesn't sound good... hope it stays stable..  :)   
      
     Yeah my meds have been stable since that last little [tiny] burp.  Wasn't   
   nearly as bad as last time, and didn't throw me for a huge loop.  I'm able to   
   concentrate a little better now.  I was worried about how it was going until I   
   actually pushed out some contract work today.  Now I've got the proof that I'm   
   able to concentrate on things well again.  ;)  Looking forward to actually   
   getting my nose to the grindstone on things a little bit more later tonight, as   
   well.  First I have to help my son with a speech, though, and I do believe he   
   requires my assistance on a few other things, as well...  If not tonight, I'll   
   probably be getting up to 'burn the early morning oil' around 3 or so tomorrow   
   morning, when I concentrate best.  I need to push out at least a few more hours   
   on this real quick and start a flow.   
      
    DAG>> hours, at least, on a daily basis, coding from now on.  I   
    DAG>> definitely need to make sure that those pathways are ready to get   
    DAG>> up to speed on something new.    
    NB> Sounds wise..  :)   
      
     I'd been slacking for a bit there; felt some burnout so I took a couple of   
   days off.  Today has been productive, though, and I think I've got a schedule   
   that'll allow me to devote enough non-burnout time to it so that I'll keep the   
   ball rolling at this point.  ;)   
      
    DAG>> I even created a virtual server with the software that they're   
    DAG>> using in order to just try learning what I can about fiddling with   
    DAG>> it while I'm sitting here and waiting to start.  :)    
    NB> That's sounds like a good use of time... :)  Gives you something   
    NB> reasonably constructive to do that might be useful on the job as   
    NB> well....  :)   
      
     It actually didn't help me too much, though I'm sure it kept me from letting   
   my wheels spin too much and getting too angsty about the holding pattern that   
   everything was in.  Today I got to get my feet wet to a point where yeah, I   
   know I can get back in the groove again, despite my time away from IT, and I'm   
   certain that I can handle this work.  It was self-doubt, I think, that was   
   giving me the most problems, after the amount of time that I'd spent away from   
   IT on anything other than minor sysadmin stuff and coding in strictly one   
   language on my own project.   
      
    NB>>> not have anything about whether or not kids could use the   
    NB>>> sidewalk...   
    DAG>> Yeah I'm sure they've got one.  My old city did, and that was less   
    DAG>> than 70,000 people.  So I'm sure this place will have a better one.   
    DAG>> If I could just locate it now...   
    NB> Look in the phone book for City Hall, and start there.... or call your   
    NB> local branch of the library and ask there where to start... ;)  One or   
    NB> the other should be able to at least point you in the right direction,   
    NB> if not actually have the answers about bikes, kids and sidewalks... ;)   
      
     I still have yet to do this.  I've been asking around, though, and it seems   
   that perhaps it's not illegal in this portion of the city to be letting my son   
   (and even myself) bike on the sidewalks.  This is very good news.  Traffic   
   around here gets pretty hectic when workday traffic is about.   
      
    NB> Signed and sitting in your lap, even without details seems pretty   
    NB> substantial to me...  :)   
      
     Oh, it was.  I've just gotten in the habit of not counting my chickens before   
   they're hatched to the point where I refused to let myself count on it.  So I   
   was still fulminating a bit about the lack of being able to work in my chosen   
   field and everything.  Now, though, I'm immersed in discussion with the other   
   developers, and we're steadily chipping away at some problems, even while   
   they're being prioritized and moved around a bit.  It's not nearly so bad now   
   that I've gotten to the admin panel and been able to examine the layout of the   
   project a lot more.  :)  I even got some billable hours in.  ;)   
      
    DAG>> start that nice minimum wage job doing work that I can handle.  It   
    DAG>> won't give me economic security of that nature, but it'll help me   
    DAG>> pay the bills, and that's a huge start.    
    NB> And it'll take up some of that nervous energy that is getting you so   
    NB> revved up... ;)   
      
     It does help quite a bit for that.  Now that I've got what should be a good   
   balance between the different things going on I'm pretty confident that I'll be   
   able to keep my nervous energy to a minimum.  I do need to work on making sure   
   that I'm getting out for a bike ride or something between my running days,   
   though.  I'm so used to being able to work on my upper body and other areas on   
   my running 'off' days so that I can burn out some of that energy.  Just got a   
   tire repaired on my bike, so it's definitely time to start putting some new   
   miles on it.  ;)   
      
    NB> We all do have our days of fogginess...  :)  Last week (and to some   
    NB> extent this one as well) have been rather short-circuiting for me... a   
    NB> couple of days too full with unexpected problems, and a couple more   
    NB> where the brain didn't quite want to function well enough to answer   
    NB> messages... and voila... days behind...  ;0   I'm almost catching up   
    NB> now... only a day behind now... ;)   
      
     What worries me at times is that it seems to go in stretches.  Definitely   
   when I'm battling issues with my meds.  That doesn't seem to be the case now,   
   though, as proven by a day of successful work, so all is good on my front.   
     I hear you on the short-circuited times.  That's why my correspondence has   
   been up and down a bit lately, too.  At least it's not due to massive technical   
   hardware failure or anything of the like this time.  ;)   
     I even managed to get a huge bite out of my standard email taken care of.  As   
   you can tell (and probably share in common with me), I write pretty verbose   
   messages in my correspondence.  So when I'm feeling too drained by life, work,   
   or whatever, my inbox piles up a bit.  I had quite the backlog in there...    
   Managed to get through all of it except for one last message that needs to be   
   written now, though, and I even managed to get a few messages out on one of   
   those dating sites.  ;)   
     Best wishes and hope you're doing well and out of the fog!   
      
     -D   
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