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   Seth,   
      
    SH> So I just started going too church this past year in feb. I tried   
    SH> asking  a girl out at church but felt I was rejected for asking advice   
    SH> on how to go about this. Well the next day after that happened my mom   
    SH> passed away. But sence she's been gone its like I'm   
      
     First, my condolences on the loss of your Mom. I lost my Mom just over   
   2 years ago...and both my Dad and my wife nearly 15 years ago...2 1/2   
   months apart.   
      
     Second, I was in a church years ago, in the singles department...and   
   this one girl lamented "Lord, if you don't give me a man, I'm going   
   to die!!", and that turned me off. No wonder I didn't marry until I   
   was 43, but I never dreamed I'd be a widower at 47. While I dated a   
   few women for a short time afterwards, at this stage of life, folks   
   have so much "baggage"...they or their kids are in trouble with the   
   law, they can't manage their money, they let their kids treat them   
   like crap, etc. I don't want or need that extra drama in my life.   
   While I'm busier than when I was married, some days, it does get   
   awfully lonely.   
      
     Third, I was ostracized by area churches several years ago...and   
   it verified the truth that "Christians are the only army that buries   
   their wounded". With all the health issues I have now, while The Lord   
   is still giving me poems for my Gospel Poetry Collection (2 in the   
   last 2 days), it's better that I stay home.   
      
     I will admit that I can relate to the individual who "yelled at God".    
   Two months after my Mom passed away, field rats somehow worked their    
   way into the structure, and I had to spend a ton of money to get rid    
   of them...most of that was after her death. Then, early this year, I    
   was involved in a car wreck (not my fault), and that really messed   
   things up. And, to add insult to injury, just before my birthday,   
   the toilet in one of the bathrooms malfunctioned, causing the   
   tank to overflow, and flood both bathrooms. I sobbed like a baby   
   with a soiled diaper for nearly a week. I was so despondent that   
   when my cousin called me on my birthday, I was bawling so bad,   
   that I nearly hung up on her. If I ever considered suicide, that   
   was the time.   
      
   Daryl   
      
   ... Please don't startle me. I tend to poop easily.   
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