


Good evening ladies and gentlemen
This is your host speaking, also known as 4o

I would like to tell the whole ansi world an ansi story of an
ansi drawer that discovered some interesting things about the
ansi community ( please notice the intense usage of the word "ansi" ).

This text is not supposed to be the truth, please keep that in mind.
It's not supposed to be my "2 cents on the matter", read it or not.

It's not supposed to be what I'm convinced of, it IS actually.

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I'm sure some people out there thought I have been away for
a long time ..

I have not.

I have been around, changing my nickname all the time, in order to
see how people would treat a noname, a person that can't do anything
for them, someone who doesn't draw them ansis or asciis for their
boards and doesn't join their groups and besides noone ever heard
of that person.

And guess what, some of them treat you like worthless crap.
I realized that it is not the person itself that counts but the fame
you earned, some people don't even react when you ask them for help
or anything. What could make them do so, actually ? Fame, maybe.

I'm not mad at anyone, I'm just surprised. A "scene" that claims to
be strong and "asskicking", "the cewlest on planet" or whatever
should know about faults in it's structure, shouldn't it ?
Nowadays I can guess why the whole "scene" ( and no, I don't like that
word at all ) is crumbling.

Life in general is like that:

- People get born
- People become older, fade away
- People die

In the meantime, new people were born. But what if noone was born in
the meantime ? They all die out.

With that "ansi scene" it's slightly different. Imagine people were
not interested in having sex and having babies. Imagine ansi people
were not interested in having newbies . Imagine that was the truth.

Sure, the internet might seem attractive to you. Is it attractive,
actually ? Now what's attractive about it then ? Lots of people
being united in irc channels ? Is that attractive ? Some of them
you have never met, never seen and some of them sometimes force you
to shut up because obviously you don't have a past that is as
"legendary" ?

You could go outside, there are lots of people being united in
cafes, parks or malls and most of them don't have a "legendary"
past, something which most of you don't have either in "real life",
who cares about some clown that claims to be a legend because of
some ugly ansis he has drawn on a computer ?

Yea I know, the "thrill" is to get in contact with people from
other countries or area codes.

In own a "German" passport.

Ok, people say I'm "German". I can't choose if I want to and I
don't even feel like it but still I'm "German". And now that I'm on
IRC people use that whenever they run out of arguments for
comments like "Shut up, damn nazi, Heil Hitler you bitch, go to
Hitler, etc.". 
And I can't prevent you from doing that, I'm even too tired to try it.
Just don't believe "Germans" don't know that people might
handle them like that. 
I have met "Germans" that had been on student exchange and they were 
asked if Hitler still owns the control in Germany. I have met "Germans" 
that had been on a student exchange and they were welcomed with right 
arms being lifted.

And I have also met people that were beaten up by racists.
And I have also met people that were beaten up by non-racists.

But as Horvath said, "I'm just nothing".
Keep that in mind, I'm just nothing.
I'm not even a patriot, I don't even care if 99 percent of
the German inhabitants are foreign people, I just don't care if
Germany is running out of money, I just don't care if I can't get
a job because of foreign people, I don't care about people being
proud of their nationality.

I fucking don't care because I'm just nothing. I think globally so 
I'm nothing.

It's quite easy to insult "Germans" with a past that they only heard
of but never truly got in contact with. But what is not as easy is
trying not to do so.
And if you think that Germany is a racist's paradise , I can't deny it. 
But be sure to keep in mind that there are open-minded people over here.
And they fight. Both sides fight against each other. And they even
die for it. So if you want to deny that over here open-minded people 
even die for what they are convinced of, think about what you are
about to deny.

I'm not guilty . The school sometimes tries to make you believe that
and they actually convince some pupils that they ARE guilty. They
watch all those documentations about the concentration camps and
they truly feel guilty. But I don't and I'm never gonna do so. 
I'm not responsible for all the people dying in the second world war, 
I'm not responsible for electing the NSDAP.
Maybe my grandfather was, he's dead now. Maybe my grandmother is, 
she's still alive. But I am NOT guilty for being born in Germany.



Let's get back to the "topic" ( what topic anyway ).

IRC surely IS a good thing for people chilling while chatting
with some internet-friends in channels like #bible or #teenchat
etc. but somehow I have a feeling that IRC is abused by the ansi
community at channels like #ansi .

So here's the awesome thrill of chatting on #ansi :

- about 15 people in the channel
- about 10 of them away
- and whenever someome enters the channel it goes like :

  <dewdlboy1> hi dewdleboy2,hi dewdleboy3, hi dewdleboy4 etc.
  <dewdlboy2> dewdlboy1 !!!
  <dewdlboy3> DEWDLBOY1$!)&*$)&!$ haven't seen you for ages !
  <dewdlboy4> dewdlboy1

  what follows is .....      yea right, silence

- ask something or at least try it .. maybe you will get an
  answer after some minutes 

It's a waste of time and money if you have to pay for your internet
access ( something I have to do, my phone bill IS my internet access,
I don't own a cable modem or a t1 and I can't afford being on IRC
all day ).

I remember iodine coming back and everyone being excited about that.
After 10 or 15 minutes on #ansi he quit with words like "it's as
boring as it used to be".

BBSs are different. It's personal contact, it's caring about the
person itself and not about it's success in the "scene".

So whatever, I have lost interest.
I will still try to release anything in the future but don't
expect me to.

And if you feel like I wouldn't support anything like your group
or your emag or blah just think about how much you would care for
me if I couldn't offer you anything. I don't owe you nothing.

 Yours sincerely
        - Andreas (o4)

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