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 From: RainbowChristiannohate@hotmail.com 
  
 In article <404862C1.E4C3B44F@nyc.rr.com>, Frederick Shorts 
  wrote: 
  
 -Ever since I can remember, I've been attracted to men. 
 - 
 -I can recall being excited by a tradesman who came to fix a leak in 
 -the kitchen when I was 5.  He was bending over under the sink and I 
 -couldn't take my eyes off his butt.  I can recall an incredibly warm 
 -feeling inside while I stared at him till he was done.  I didn't realise 
 -what I was feeling at the time but in hindsight I see this as my very 
 -first sexual stirring. 
 - 
 -As a kid, I was always dressing up in girls clothing; I cringe thinking 
 -about it now.  I was never sure why bacause I didn't become a transvestite 
 -in later life.  I didn't dress up because I wanted to be a girl but 
 -because it was more fun, flamboyant and exciting.  Dressing up was my 
 -first stirring of wanting to be more over the top and be noticed.  My 
 -parents were cool and never seemed to worry. 
 - 
 -I suppose I was a typical little gay boy.  I loved my mom, always 
 -helping her and my gran out in the kitchen, whilst my brother hung out 
 -with dad and grandpa!  This is not to say I was a total sissy!  I played 
 -with my cars and guns etc.  In fact, I still play with guns.  I even used 
 -to box with some kids gloves we were given one Christmas.  I was very shy 
 -and quiet however. 
 - 
 -At about age 11, I can remember fantasising about one of the teachers 
 -and his hairy chest and tight butt.  I am embarrassed thinking about it 
 -now but I can remember writing one of my stories where the murderer in 
 -it had a hairy chest and tight butt too.  Who knows how often I mentioned 
 -with my great descriptive powers his gorgeous hairy chest and tight butt? 
 -At about the same time I remember staring at a magazine cover of multiple 
 -Olympic-kayaking medallist Ian Ferguson.  God did I want him!!  Nowadays, 
 -I want just about everyone I meet down at the Ramrod. 
 - 
 -In my first year at high school I remember lusting after one of the 
 -school seniors.  I was attracted to the occasional boy at school but 
 -only if they were older.  I liked men!  Oh yeah, I recall taking 
 -forever to get changed after physical education, watching one or two of 
 -the cute boys in class and somehow hoping one of them might make an advance 
 -on me, if only!  I used to spend quite a lot of time in the toilet block 
 too! 
 -No better place to check other guys out that at the urinals.  Boy do I 
 -wish I was younger now!  I'd be going to Harvey Milk High School right now. 
 - 
 -In my teen years we started going to summer camp near Chicago.  One day 
 -my brother came back from a walk and regaled us with stories of nude 
 -sunbathers at the end of the lake.  I put two and two together and soon 
 -came up with (who knows why) if there were nude guys up there then 
 -some of them must be gay! 
 - 
 -Pretty soon I was going for very long walks!  I had all my first sexual 
 -experiences up there.  My first kiss (Wow) and first blow job!  It turns 
 -out I give really good head.  Who'd have known. 
 - 
 -As a teenager I even prayed to God that I would one day have a 
 -boyfriend.  Not sure if God was very impressed with my prayer requests! 
 -Girls never ever interested me apart from being some of my closest 
 -friends. To this day most of my friends are girls.  I love going shopping 
 -with them.  They seem to value my advice on clothes and make-up. 
 - 
 -I had my first penetrative sexual experience at about 17 or 18.  It was 
 -amazing; everything I hoped for.  He was black with a huge cock! 
 -I had no problems with it, it was meant to be. I was a natural! 
 -Nowadays, I always seek out the well hung dudes and I usually wear a 
 -butt-plug in anticipation.  In other words I want a real man's dick in me. 
 - 
 -So, I think its genetic. What does everyone else think? 
 - 
  
  
 Well it certainly is obbious from  what you wrote that you didn't "choose" 
 to be who and what you are. 
  
 Just one small piece of advice..ALWAYS, and I mean ALWAYS  "play safe". If 
 you are unclear how to fo that please go to: 
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